Missing Friends

I haven't slept tonight. .. one of those nights.  Hubby is not so well and im a lot on the sore side of things. Regardless that is not what I am posting about. To be honest I often wonder how people who I knew for ages... who actually played a key role in my life... are doing.
Last night I searched the net.
I didn't find a few of the people I wonder about but I did find 2 of them.
Not sure if they want to know me.
After we moved here and my mental health issues took over my time.. I lost touch. It was never that I didn't care... it was more that in all truth I barely had the strength to deal with other things. Still... I could and should have done better by these people.
Now.. ive sent messags so time will tell.
I do know I miss having them in my life.